letter nine

Dear Tests, Papers, Quizzes, and Presentations: I don't know if you are aware of this but you really are completely ruining my week, making me lose sleep, and causing me to not have any fun at all. Dear Handstands: Thanks for being a super awesome way to take a study break. Dear Sweet Jesus: I am so incredibly unworthy of everything You are to me, so thanks for being my best friend anyways. Help me to always speak up when I need to, kick my pride in the butt, and love others like You love us. Dear Wil Group: I can't wait for us all to be friends forever. I love you girls already. Dear Caffeine: Oh boy, we're gonna have a party these next few days.

letter eight

Dear Weekend: It really makes me sad how quickly you passed by, but thank you for providing me with lots of fun, laughter, friends, and smiles. Dear Peggy: I promise we'll hang out this week, Im sorry for neglecting you recently. Dear Anth 404: You are by far the most challenging class I've ever been a part of, but I really am excited about being challenged and learning to love people that are so obviously different from me. Dear Roommates: You are daily a source of joy and encouragement to me and I am constantly thanking the Lord for you in my life. Dear Jordan Walters: I miss you. Dear Father: Help me to stand out, to be different, to live for the desires of Your heart and not the desires of this world. It is a daily struggle for me to put Your plans above my own, but I want to live by faith and continuously resting in the peace that comes with Your Truth.

letter seven

Dear Weather: I want to play in the rain! If you could make the tornadoes go away I would feel a lot more comfortable, k thanks. Dear School: I'm officially already tired of you. Dear Future WIL group: I'm really really really excited to meet you. Let's all be best friends k? Dear Youknowwho: I could really use a wish right now. Dear 7th and 8th grade FBC youth girls: You are all HILARIOUS. I want to hang out with you all the time. How you can be so immature and mature at the same time is still confusing me. Dear Savior: Once again you turned my suffering into joy and my mourning into dancing. I will forever praise you for the incredible Peace you bring.

letter six

Dear Beautiful Friend: our talk yesterday was such a blessing and joy to me. let's please please please have these more often. i need you in my life. Dear Rain: While i enjoy the fact that you make it not so darn hot in College Station, I do NOT enjoy the fact that you chose to play when I was riding my bike home. Dear Peggy: You're my favorite source of transportation. Dear LebronJamesEgo on Twitter: You make me laugh everyday. Dear Incredible Father: You're all I need.

letter five

Dear Joy of the Lord: thank you for being bigger than my insecurities. Dear Peace of our Savior: Thank you for comforting beyond my fears. Dear Grace of God: Thank you for being better than my mistakes and failures. Dear Sweet Jesus: thank you for loving me despite my brokenness, stupidity, high states of emotions, and attachment to this corrupted world. Dear Tomorrow: thank you for being a new day full of new life, surprises, stories, and friends... despite that fact that you happen to be a Monday.

letter four

Dear Friday: You're my favorite. Dear Texas A&M: Please consider re-paving all your roads, it would help us bike riders out considerably. Dear Friend: Thanks for cutting your mullet. Also, you make me laugh a lot. Friends forever? Dear Bedroom: Clean yourself fool. Dear National-Wear-Your-School-Colors Day: Sorry I missed the memo. Dear Jesus: I'm sorry that I choose to ignore you sometimes. Thanks for always being bigger and better than my pride and failures. I'm ready to be stretched, grown, changed, and challenged this semester.

letter three

Dear Roommates: Your surprise you-know-what's came in the mail today. I can't wait to see what they look like! Come home soon. Dear Booch: You're my new favorite bed-couch and I plan on spending lots of my days lounging on you. Dear Bike Seat: I wish you were more comfortable, my booty is not appreciative right now. Dear Regret: You suck. Dear Ellie: I miss you so much, come hang out with me soon. We can play dress-up. You're the best 8 year old in the whole wide world. Dear Savior: I'm desperately in need of Your Peace.

letter two

Dear Culture of Women Prof: I don't appreciate the fact that 2 days into the semester I already feel overwhelmed by how much reading you are choosing to throw at me. I just felt the need to express that to you. Dear Freshman I hit on my bike yesterday: I'm sorry. Dear Disc Golf: I felt really good about how well I played your game today. It's the little things in life that bring us joy sometimes. Dear friends: I'm so lucky to know people who understand my humor. Dear Jesus: You are teaching me some crazy things right now, and I have to say it hasn't been the easiest week... but I trust You and I am so stinkin thankful to have a Savior so full of grace.

letter one

this blog post and probably many to come will be inspired by todaysletters.com

check it out. they are precious and witty and a wonderful depiction of love.

Dear Best Friend: i'm going to try to be better about blogging this semester, partly just for my sanity and a good break from studying. please hold me accountable. also, i want to be the best maid of honor ever, so if that means you have to be bridezilla, go for it. Dear Bike: please stop giving me blisters, i hate you already. Dear Professors: I don't want to be in class, you don't seem to enjoy teaching very much, so maybe we can just compromise and have an easy semester? Dear Roommates: I love you so much. I can't promise to always be emotionally stable or in a good mood, but know that you are both my favorites. Let's be friends forever.

grace

Our God is BIG. He is so faithful. He desires our hearts, He desires our lives. How we ever choose to run away from Him baffles me. It is so sad that our pride and selfish desires distract us from the only thing that can truly satisfy us.

I have been so humbled and convicted of this in the last couple weeks, and the way I have seen God's grace and mercy in my life makes me want to cry. When we are weak, He is strong. That sounds so simple, so easy. It's not. Literally when we feel like falling apart, He delights in being that strength. HE fills holes, HE heals wounds, HE speaks truth, HE brings joy. When we feel like no one cares or understands, the One who knows our heart inside and out is there. He is comfort, peace, and rest.

I think sometimes I get so caught up in my worldly securities and relationships that in order for me to see how much I need Him, He takes them away. We are lost without our Savior, literally lost. I try so hard to make plans and fix things my own way, that my pride completely blinds me to the freedom that comes when we surrender ourselves to Him.

You raise me beyond the skies, into a city of eternal light
Looking down on the stars, I fly into heaven, caught up in your arms

I Breathe Your fragrance, taste your goodness,
Crumble to pieces
Into Your love
In Your presence all my existence
Crumbles to pieces
Into Your love

I’m speechless what can I say
Words become tears
As You wipe them away
All my kisses and crowns at your feet
Fire of heaven burn love over me

It’s such a beautiful story
I’m face to face with the King of glory

You rescued someone unworthy, I know this is love

Make me more like You, Lord. break me, use me, devastate my life.

rest

It's been a while. Spring break came and went, and the hardest week of my life then proceeded to begin. I got back to college station at 3 am on monday morning, slept for a few hours, and then dove into a week full of tests, papers, and assignments. I feel like i've barely had time to breathe. Im sitting in a coffee shop right now completely fed up with my comm 325 notes, and decided to take a break and look at some pictures from the last week. Here are some of my favorites from my adventure in san francisco. enjoy.

What a nice rest to sit and remember the stories that went with these pictures. All i really want to do right now is curl up and fall asleep and dream about summer. I feel overwhelmed with school and life. Sometimes it's tiring always being the positive, encouraging, optimistic one. I feel like i try so hard to have a good attitude every day and smooth things over cause I'm such a fixer. I don't think people understand how hard that is. When I'm surrounded by negativity i just want to run away. I just want to be the one that gets to be in a bad mood and feel supported sometimes. Especially this week.

beach

i've decided that everyone is either a beach or mountains person. you either like the waves, sand, and sun or nature, view, and snow.

i am DEFINITELY a beach person. while i have an appreciation for the mountains and would be perfectly happy living in a small cabin in the woods with trees all around and no human to be seen, my ideal paradise exists next to an ocean.

i love love love sand in my hair, sand in my toes, sand all around. putting on some sunglasses, grabbing a towel, a good book, and spending the day listening to the waves.

california girl at heart right here. it just feels free.